Crime and Punishment

I broke down and went to Burger King yesterday... and paid the price.

Spent the rest of the day with awful diarrhea .

I broke the "No Fast Food" rule today.

...but my family's in town. So it doesn't count, right? ^_^;;

As expected...

My weight's back up to 310.

However, I have now gone over a week without going to Burger King. That's actually a record for me. I wish I could say that it was a week "without fast food," but I have gone to Subway a couple times in that period. And I had a grilled chicken sandwich and fries from an independent burger store at Harvard Square today, not to mention a couple Dunkin Dougnuts breakfasts.

But still... No burger king, no McD's, no Wendy's. That's a start.

Progress... but no celebration yet.

My scale weight is at 305. Seven pounds less than when I began this blog. But I'm not celebratory yet. In years past I've seen 5-10 pound oscillations in my weight. If, as I suspect, I was at one of the high points when I began, then this is more a return to my standard weight.

If I go below 300, I'll consider that a victory. If a small one.

One day at a time

Yes, it's been almost a month since my last post and no, it hasn't gone well.

What I can say is that I've started to understand when addicts talk about taking it "one day at a time." You can't say "I'm not going to give in from here on" because that's too much. It's too overwhelming. All you can do is say "I'm not going to give in today."

Following that, I've avoided eating out since Sunday, or actually Monday when I had a Subway sandwich. But that was free from my Subway Points and (for now) not spending money is more important than losing weight. Tomorrow will be the challenge. I have to go get a haircut and the go to a movie with a friend. For the first day since Sunday I'll be taking money out of the house. So it'll be a challenge to spend only on those two things.

Cold Turkey?

When one is addicted to a substance, it's often suggested that going "cold turkey," i.e. suddenly and completely abstaining from it, is a good way to go.

...but if what you're addicted to is food?

All I can do is try to avoid fast food, which should be a great improvement. But where do I draw the line? No Burger King or McDonalds is clear enough. But what about Subway sandwiches? What about the BBQ pork sandwiches at the cafeteria where I work? Do I just go with foods I cook myself? That's not practical, unfortunately. I know from a painful few weeks in college that I'm not wired for vegetarianism. So what's the cut-off from "Bad Food" to "Good Food?"

Nothing too new, good or bad to say. I didn't eat any fast food today. I had bean dip and chips for breakfast, a pork sandwich from my store's cafe for lunch, and I'm thinking about spaghetti for dinner. Walking home from the bus today, I felt fat. Just seemed to be waddling and my thighs were chafing from rubbing together.